Apologies are in order (I feel like I apologize a lot on this blog, for missing posts, eh?)…I missed my Weekly Round-Up last week, but I promise I have a great excuse!
Last Sunday, I fully intended to write up my updates for the previous week. My fiancé and I were planning to meet my best friend and bridesmaid downtown for milkshakes, and then I was going to come home and write away. But then, something spontaneous and unexpected happened. It’s not something I hadn’t thought about before, but I certainly wasn’t intending to do it then, on that very day. I had a moment of fearlessness, though, and my Sunday took an adventurous turn.
My fiancé and I decided to get tattoos. I guess the week started off with tattoos as well – my fiancé and I got fun airbrush tattoos and I asked him to take an artsy photo of me holding one of my favourite novels, A Court of Mist and Fury, with the airbrush tattoo showing.
We talked a bit about how cool it would be if the tattoo were real, and that started us up on a conversation we had had many times over, about wanting to get a tattoo together of the crown symbol we have painted on our bedroom wall (you can see it in my post about my new home décor, here). I’ve wanted a tattoo since my early university days, and reading the A Court of Thorns and Roses and Sins and Needles series this year only made my urge stronger, but I was still a bit scared and hesitant. It wasn’t the permanency that bothered me, it was the idea of the healing process, the not knowing how my body would react to a tattoo, how long it would take to heal, if it would look ugly and scabby in the process. I suffer from very situational anxiety, and I feared that getting a tattoo would completely set me off and make me paranoid about insane and improbable side effects or allergic reactions. Honestly, I still am a bit nervous about these things, despite how illogical I know they are, but I was somehow able to put my anxieties aside long enough to decide to get this tattoo with my fiancé. It seemed like the perfect wedding gift to one another (less than 4 months to go!) and there is nothing in my life that I am more sure about than my love for my fiancé. I know couples tattoos can be cliché and risky, but my fiancé has made such an indelible impact on my life that I know he will have my heart forever, regardless of anything that may happen between us. I also know, no matter what, I will always want a reminder of our love on me, permanently, right on my sleeve where I wear my green and passionate heart. So, I took the plunge, and now I am a tatted girl!
I have to say, I am really pleased with how last Sunday turned out for me, even though it meant missing out on a Weekly Round-Up. I hope this little update made up for it though…and I will also leave you with my favourite quote of recent weeks, which has reminded me to keep my chin up and be the strong and confident woman who can decide to get a tattoo without fear or hesitation.
“‘Only you can decide what breaks you, Cursebreaker.’”
~ A Court of Wings and Ruin, Sarah J. Maas
Girl with a Green Heart