Hi Everyone! ❤
I thought I’d hop on here just to write a quick post amidst the chaos that is our current world.
As you may know if you read my blog regularly, I have suffered for all of my adult life with severe anxiety (made much worse during my pregnancy and postpartum). Normally, at a time like this, when a deadly virus is running rampant in our society and we are all confined to our homes, my anxiety would be through the roof. I’m a restless person by nature, and although I love sitting at home with a warm drink and a long book, I also crave stimulus and fresh air.
That all being said, for some reason, I am not all that anxious right now. Of course, I am taking self-isolation very seriously, especially because I have a 5-month old, and I am acutely aware of the dangers of COVID-19. However, I think I am about as concerned as everyone else in the population, which is a rare thing for me indeed. I’m not curled up in bed crying out of anxiety and I haven’t had a single panic attack, and that is incredibly unusual for me, particularly as a person who craves order and control living in a time of worldwide crisis and uncertainty. So, I decided to sit down and really have a good think about what it is that’s different about my mental state right now. This time last year, I was in possibly the worst place I have ever been in, dealing not only with the huge physical and emotional burden of being pregnant but also with some surprising and unexpected changes in other areas of my life. I was truly at my own rock bottom, and maybe that is why this year I am able to achieve some perspective and remind myself that there is nothing much that I can do about this situation other than stay home and that this will eventually (hopefully!) pass. Maybe it is also reassuring to know that we’re all in this together and everyone on Earth is being equally affected, so this is not a problem or burden that I alone have to face. I don’t know exactly what it is, but I do know that I worked very hard while pregnant and in this postpartum period to heal myself mentally, and I think my focus on self-awareness and mindfulness has begun to pay off.
With that in mind, I wanted to share two key things that have kept a smile on my face during this overwhelming time in history…
FRIVOLITY & FAMILY
It would be very easy to get trapped in a spiral of seriousness while sitting at home. I could very easily spend hours on YouTube watching news reports about COVID-19 and then more hours scouring Twitter for updates. I do absolutely keep up to date through my government’s website and official pages on Twitter because I want the most reliable data, but I also know that dwelling in the negative is NOT a good headspace to be in. For that reason, I focus on spending my time (when I’m not actively rolling around with my 5-month old) doing things that are fun and somewhat “frivolous”. These things have recently included bingeing the Netflix reality series Love Is Blind which is an absolute blast (HIGHLY RECOMMEND!), memorizing all the lyrics to the songs on Mandy Moore’s recent album “Silver Landings” which is positively DIVINE, and engaging in intense at-home workouts posted on Instagram by fitness guru Blogilates.
Of course, the other pastime that I am naturally leaning on is my beloved reading. Late at night, when the lights are off and we’re getting ready to quiet down, I curl up on the couch with my son Dorian on my lap, my husband seated in a chair across from us, and I read for hours. Sometimes until 3:00am, which is ill-advised when you have a 5-month old but a lot of fun nonetheless! Dorian will be up and staring around for a little bit, but eventually he drifts into sleep and I just gaze at him and my book alternatively. It is without doubt one of the most calming and wonderful times, and it has made me so grateful for this life that I have, especially in this time when we are reminded how finite everything is.
And then, naturally, since we’ve all been up until the wee hours reading, Dorian and I like to have a good cuddle every morning, to start the day on a mental high. This is something I HIGHLY recommend to get the day off to a good start…so if you’re stuck at home with a loved one or a fury friend, make sure to schedule in some snuggles each day!
I hope everyone is staying safe and healthy at this critical time! xox
A Review of the Book from the Photo Above:
The Royal Secret by Lucinda Riley
This was enjoyable and exciting for sure, although not utterly brilliant. I found there was actually too much insta-love for the characters to really touch me, and I feel the overall story was too long as there were several red herrings that just felt unnecessary and dragged out. This book was entertaining though, and a pretty GOOD mystery read.
❥❥❥ (out of 5)
Janille N G
Mummy with a Green Heart